Friday, March 25, 2011

hapus aku

my mind constantly wanders off,at times unconsciously and at other times deliberately to escape the droning voices, mundane yet mechanical routines.

the recent and successively repeating muse is my skin turning into a canvas, a canvas to be inked or painted on with brush wet with paint.

one of the basis of pharmacology,the mind controls the senses..& if i let my mind run free, i could almost feel the brush strokes on my back & the chill when the liquid evaporates.

and something jolts me back to my surrounding, to the cage that i'm trying so hard to escape

ps.reality is a prison

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

*words i cant get out my mind,they are not mine yet feel so right at the moment*

kan vizhital...vennilavu

kai thiranthal...kathalergal

ragasiyam pesu..devathaigal


yenthan kanavil...yethanai..yethanai...

yethanai nanavu...

yaarai ketpen?yaarai ketpen?

nallai sonnal yen guruve...

vanavil varayum vaanam

mazhaiyile naneyum thotham

thuli thuli kule thanimai kaanum

paravai piranthanal yen guruve...

*needs to be completed*

Wednesday, March 9, 2011


Nathuram Godse was the man who assassinated Gandhi.
the link below provides nathuram's final address to the court.

heavy & thought provoking.

another link on Nathuram

me as viewed by her

this is done in courtesy of my baby girl sha..

monday : i'm not gonna call him till he calls me

tuesday : you know what, i think i shouldn't be hard on him....i'm just gonna let him be

wednesday : screw it, fuck it...i dont need him or nybody else. im perfectly good by myself..

thursday : i hate him!!

friday : i called him..he sounds really sad..i feel bad now...sighhhh

saturday : he talks to my brother...cant talk to me la...

sunday : some girl wrote on his wall again...handsome la, sexy la...grrrr!!

*loop & shuffle mode on*

ps.she also thinks am a stalker n he is a celebrity

Sunday, March 6, 2011

love puns intended =)

a night of no sleep would usually spell out some amount confusion but today was different =)
i guess it was due to the beautiful early morning darshan that i had of the sun...
what a sight it orange ball of fire lighting up the horizon when the half of the sky was still dreamy with mist...

first stop was at the Amanjaya bus stop where Sha dropped me & i got on the city liner...i got off one stop away from the bank which resulted in a slightly longer walk but i wasn't complaining since it was still early morning n my path was shaded by trees. i knew i was far too early for the bank but i wanted to make sure what time does it open..since i had an hour to kill i decided to get some breakfast...the neighboring shop only starts operating at lunch hours but she said she'll get me a drink. while she was it, i was making funny faces at her little baby boy who was amused by me.

with my coffee in hand, i had an early morning phone call from melly who always makes my day =) i waited a little while longer for the bank to open...they were having a crazy morning coz the thunderstorm the previous night screwed their cables n the system was offline so i spend my tim winking at another baby boy *his mummy found me annoying though* but i still i got my issue sorted out & i have a new card now..yay!!

next stop was get some goodies which i failed to find =( so i had head to village mall where i found some lovelies...hehehe ;) ps. ruscoe, faceshop & the lingerie section has sale for limited time only...;) im so tempted to go there make some more purchases since there's a really nice aunty who offered me to give me her discount card..yipppeee! =p

while i was waiting for the bus...i was honked at repeatedly =.=
this happens to almost every female who is by the curb or road walking or waiting...its sad really...
why do u honk??
why?to say that we're pretty?to say that u noticed us?honestly..under the blazing sun & heat do you really think we care?
i mean...if u want to show ur a man...come up to us & offer us ride. whether we accept or we dont is another matter all together...but stop being a leering,juvenile brat & try being a man...STOP HONKING!!

so nyway...the bus finally came after almost an hour later. i was relieved for the air conditioning & enclosed space *sans honking* =) reaching campus, i asked the bus driver to stop me nearer to the front gate he refused saying its against traffic rules but when i was about to pay he refused payment and said it was on him...awwwwwwwwwwww =D
thank you,bus driver uncle ;)

aimsters would know that from the campus main gate to the hostels it is quite a i was walking slowly and there could have been almost 10 cars who whooshed past me TOWARDS campus but none stopped..i almost gave up when the one of the female warden's offered me a ride on her bike!! =)

before reaching hostel, i saw a tired teary eyed junior & i gave him my chocolate ration of the day...i dont know what was his problem but at least he has some chocolates now =)

if anyone does ya a good deed,just pass it on & keep the circle going on =) i did mine & m a happy child =))

Saturday, March 5, 2011

greener pastures?

the grass is always greener on the other side...

well it always appears to be...its just our nature i guess to never be satisfied with who we are,what we have & the lives we live.

there's always a search for something better & in process we might miss out or deliberately leave aspects of our lives.. let it be objects, habits or even people. what do we get out this quest? some of us might have gotten lucky and live a better life which was what they wanted so good for bout the others?the ones who regret their choices, the ones who wish they could make amends...

my question is, do we stay where we are now & regret not taking the step or do we make the change & face the consequences however dire they may be?

Some try to hand me money,
they don't understand
I'm not broke, I'm just
a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense
but what else can I do?
How can I move on
when I'm still in love with you?