blues..

maybe am a closet massochist..no no..

not in a naughty way but a sad way...

i dont understand why sometimes i do things which i know would eventually irritate or annoy me...its in my hands to make the choice, since i have already made the decision to walk away & stay away..so why do i do it?

maybe because i have not forgiven n forgotten despite my claims of such actions...

maybe i need a constant reminder of her actions which would fuel me to strive harder in life (?)

but am i that kind of person...the kind of person who needs to prove myself to the world?

i tell the world am not...but am i?

i cant deny to myself that i have had active imaginations of us meeting & i am at position to be envied..

ahhh...my secret desire is now unveiled...

my wish to be envied by her who i have a distaste for

well..im just going to pray 'nasty me' stops showing its ugly head with the help of new year & presence of wonderful,positive friends like neenu and nunna in bali =)

*prays hard*

receive.

if there is something which has constantly been on my mind for some time *apart from my significant other* is the fact that as much as it is important to give,it is equally important to receive.

just like the laws of karma & newton, evrything requires an equal and opposite reaction. example here is give and take.

most of us like to give & experience the joy of giving things or actions of goodwill to others. it creates a warm,tingly fuzzy feeling inside of us which is why we enjoy doing it.

no one likes a freeloader and no one wants to be a freeloader, so which is why people always return favors or do good things in return to us.which is why friends celebrate birthdays, save a seat in class, let u copy their work, take care of when ur sick, buy u ur favorite meal out of the blue & stuff.

acts of kindness & gestures of goodwill must always be appreciated coz no one likes to feel unappreciated or as if the the trouble they went through was all in vain.

so the next time,someone does something nice for ya...let it be family,friend or any random stranger..please do smile and say thank you, for that alone will make up for all their efforts for you...afterall they are doing it out of care...so what is so hard in showing some in return?

my dearest dearies...

my bestfriends who always make feel at home *rash, kalai, adam, jivan, prash* who organised my belated "surprise"birthday party*

simar, dinesh, and kumz for being a big part in it, making it even more meaningful

my sweet housemates who went through much trouble for the earlier party complete with hostel baked cake *sham, betsy, theiva, menaga, punitha, jia yee, jasmine, pik yin, shangari*

vaish, naihui, punitha nunna, neenu, beebu & sha 'lil flower' with their much thoughtful gifts & every other individual who wished me...

here is a BIG THANK YOU & I LOVE YOU ALL =)

dear..

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november..

the month rainy days and cloudy skies...

its been 10 days into november & the feelings of deja vu are stronger...

my birthday -my belated 'surprise' bday party which is in the works =p

you just know, i know ;)

the crazies which happen with deepavali *mad caper of shopping,cooking,nutty relatives,fireworks*

the looming exams & the familiar tug in heart every time i think of home...

guess i just gotta fight em sleep fairies off & be friendly with my notes =)

prash's patter

dinesh : dei,i saw a fairlady parked outside the admin the other day & a chinese girl was walking away from it..wonder who owns the fairlady?

prash : the cafeteria aunty la...

dinesh : no la..cannot be...

prash : ya la...she is the only fairlady i know

everyone else.........=.=

this just proves what a colorist prasyaanth is. tsk tsk...

KING'S CUP

king's cup..

the first time i heard of this was at party couple years ago...

sounded n looked a whole lot fun but i was not a part of it then.

its a game which gets everyone drinking & tipsy fast..naughty eh?

it is and it is quite fun..what isn't when people are drunk? =p

so nyway..

last monday we played king's cup after visiting jivan from the hospital *he was admitted due to a bad episode of food poisoning*

the we here is, adam,kalai,prash,nitz,rash n yours truly =)

there was a lil twist this time,

since most of the 'we' are non-alco drinkers we decided to play with non alcoholic drinks like iced tea, teh O limau, coffee, kiwi juice, apple juice...u get my drift..

laughing at us are you?

well it was worse than any episode involving alcohol coz we were bloated and sick by the end of the game...why?

try downing cups of iced tea & coffee one after another...n u will know =.=

despite the after effects...it was FUN!!

we laughed hysterically like always...prash's name was roti, kalai's was ponnu n den christened again by prash to ponnu pandi, adam was #2...

well m definitely looking forward to another episode of KING'S CUP but these time with the proper beverages of course ;)

ps.thank u for the beautiful saturday morning by the jetty

tak suka!!

one of the most frustrating thing is when you are awfully annoyed with someone & your hell bent in ignoring them, they have no idea that you are.

ur mind is filled with scenes when that they came around trying to win your affection or seek comfort in your company and you admonish them with witty,clever yet painful puns which strikes their heart & they regret being mean to you.

ahhhh...the sweet taste of revenge...

but right now,

u just feel like an idiot,coz the other person is idyllically blissful with no knowledge of ur fuming stomach combustion...

revenge fail.